It might sound silly, but somewhere along the way, I forgot what it felt like not to fight all the time.  We’d been struggling for so long that we lived in that place where anger and frustration were so common they almost felt ‘normal’.  But, things are changing.  I now know what it feels like not to fight all the time; and to know what it feels like to focus on the big things and get over little scuffles quickly.  This weekend, my partner and I had our two year anniversary.  I can’t believe it - two years!  What started out so fleeting and unpredictable has beaten the odds.  We’ve transformed ourselves, and how we relate to each other.  The progress has been commendable - we’re living this for us and doing what works for us.  And, yes, it’s good.  I want more.  I want more surprises, and love, and experiences, and challenges!

This weekend was also my first lab for my A&P2 class.  I was so nervous.  I hadn’t been in a classroom setting in years, and I’d forgotten most of what I learned two years ago in the first half of the series.  Did I study enough for the test?  Would I be able to handle dissection okay?  Would I find a lab partner who I could work with and not feel left out?  So yeah, I made it through; I don’t think I failed the test; I completed the lab and all in all, I know I’ll make it through this quarter.  It’ll be long and difficult but I really want this for me.

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