Things change slowly over time, and there are so many times I wish I could go back.  I miss the feelings and the energy associated with what was.  And, don’t get me wrong, there are plenty of other things that are important and good — but just different.  Sometimes I have trouble letting go.

And, sometimes, someone says something and it essentially hits you like a brick wall.  I had one of those moments last night, and I panicked inside.  It was because, I had never heard him say that before.  And, in my head, it went.. ‘Well, you’ve never said that before.  Why did you all of a sudden feel that?  Did I do something wrong?  It kind of makes me sad that you feel that way.’

I try to remember that this is a volitle time.  That, things are changing and fucked up and neither of us are really ourselves.  I try to convince myself that it’s just that.  But, it’s hard.

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